In an alternate universe...

Despite my certainty in my adoption choice, my mind can't help but wander to what might've been. In that alternate universe where I chose to raise Emilia, she wouldn't have stranger anxiety around my parents. She would know them and love them even at one year old. I know she will know and love them eventually it's just heart-breaking to see her shy away from them. Not only did I take her away from my arms, I took her away from theirs.  And sometimes that's too much to take.