I was somewhat dreading this day, thinking it would be yet another reminder of my baby that's going to call another woman 'mom'. I had a picture of what today might look like, partially hoping to spend it with Emilia, but that didn't happen and I'm glad now. I am not her mom. I do not wake up at 2am when she's sick and hold her upright in a rocking chair so she can sleep. I do not change her poop explosions. I am not the one she calls out for in her little baby voice- 'mama'. But I am her birth-mom, and that's something no one else can claim. It doesn't have to be a battle for recognition between adoptive and birth moms. We each have our own place, and (though it sucks majorly sometimes) mine is not always with her.
That being said- I have awesome friends. I truly see God's hand at work in my life, putting exactly the people I need into it. This morning I awoke to texts from said friends wishing me a happy mothers day. I have not been forgotten simply because my baby isn't with me. I'm going to spend the day with my awesome mother, making her feel as loved as possible. And I know Emilia will be doing the same for her mother for years to come.
So, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY BIRTH-MOMS, who had the strength to do what's right for their children and HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADOPTIVE MOMS, who did what we could not and daily guard over our most precious gift.
About Me
- Hillary
- My name is Hillary, I'm 24 and have a beautiful daughter who was born June 25, 2010. She was adopted by an amazing family with whom I am now very close. Adoption is an incredible experience but can extremely suck sometimes. I feel called to share my story with other people not only to spread knowledge about adoption (especially open adoptions) but also to help support girls going through unplanned pregnancy/adoption.
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